2012 Resolution. It took me 26 years to realise this. Have you??

Assalamualaikum ya'll.

3 more days to go before we welcome 2012 and bid farewell to 2011. I personally feel that 2011 is the year i grew a lot spiritually and getting to know what actually my life is all about. Some of you may think who needs another new year resolution? It will only lasts until March anyway. Until recently, what i learned about new year's resolution is pretty much from CLEO magazine. I want to lose 20kg!! Or get that senior executive position!! Or I'm gonna get married!! Or I'm going to get a diving license!! Yada yada. I don't realise how secular the world has make me.

You see, I'm a planner freak. I often feel empty without having any strategic goals to achieve. And Alhamdulillah, I achieved a lot of things that i THOUGHT i wanted. It looks like I'm all set and ready to face new challenges and new life goals.

But having said all that, why do i feel tired but unfulfilled? It feels like I'm constantly in search of something more fulfilling after achieving each goals. At one point, losing 10kg is a piece of cake. (Keeping the weight off is THE challenge but i couldn't care less, losing it is freakishly easy)

This coming year, it'll be different. I already found my ULTIMATE LIFE GOAL. Whatever my resolutions would be after this are my MEANS for me to fulfil that lifelong goal. The challenge is 100 times harder and the reward would be 1000 times better InsyaAllah.

The goal is to be closer to Allah. To my religion. Period. That simple. (CLICHE nye la minah kan!!!)


The thing about this ultimate goal is, it should NOT BE ONLY MINE. If you are a practising Muslim, you pray 5 times a day, you fast during Ramadhan, you went to or want to go to Haj and you believe in Rasulullah S.A.W...you might want to take this seriously. 


After understanding this is your goal as a MUSLIM, now its time to pick your means toward achieving it for this particular year.

In general, Islam teaches its believer to look for balance in life. We don't want to miss out on 'Dunia' at the same time collecting good deeds for 'akhirat'. As long as you put your deen and akhirat in front of dunia, InsyaAllah you will be fine. But how do we do that? What is the thin line between putting akhirat above everything else and yet get akhirat at the same time? (Yaaa..this is the part that took me twenty freaking years to get it through my thick head) 


For me, (this part varies for different individual) i want to achieve these 7 main things in life until the day i die. I will highlight the sentence that making it a MEANS to the ultimate goal of getting closer to Allah.

1. DEEN -  I want to be a good muslimah. I want to be that sort of person who put religion in front of everything else.

2. EDUCATION - I want to finish DBA. Knowledge is the foundation of Iman

3. CAREER - I want to be somebody significant in the company. I want to contribute. We need more successful practising muslims to influence and be decision maker. 

4. FAMILY - I want to keep good ties with them. I strongly believe that successful people have good relationship with their family. Soon, insyaAllah to learn how to be a good wife and how to raise little khalifahs


5. FINANCE - I want to have lots of money. Who doesn't? But money would stay only in my HANDS never let it touch MY HEART. Spend money on people, not on self. (Dalam setiap harta kita sebenarnya ada bahagian orang lain, bukan semua hak kita)


6. HEALTH - I want to be healthy and fit so i can live long. Our body is Allah's gift. It is definitely an important tool for us to make ibadah. Hopefully, being healthy means I can wake up at night and pray. 


7. SOCIAL LIFE - I want to surround myself with the best of people. Intelligent people with ethics and values. People that can help bring the best in me. Do you know that our social life is about the average of 5 people we spend most of our time with? Who do spend time lately? Look at your friends. They are YOU.

These seven aspects are my MEANS to get closer to Allah, which is my GOAL. In each of these seven part, Al-Quran and Sunnah teach me some very specific way to follow. You see how balanced and complete ISLAM is my dear friend? Subhanallah. Everything is laid bare in front of us. Its either we go and look for it or get distracted by something less significant.

Its all about a change in perspective. Let me give you an example of how wrong and twisted things could be if we don't put Allah as our goal.

Heedless goal: Get married to Mr. X

How to achieve: We make doa to Allah to let me marry Mr. X. If he doesn't want to, open his heart ya Allah...let him see me and only me ya Allah (contoh doa kita la kan..cewahh)

Problem: Our knowledge is limited. Does marrying Mr. X makes me close to Allah? Even if he is the best Muslim guy there is. If marrying him do not make me closer to god would you still wants Allah to grant you that wish? Whats your choice? Your Deen or your Man? If deep down, you are picking your Man...TETTTTT. 

Lets turn the situation around if we put getting closer to Allah as our goal.


Goal: Get closer to Allah

Means/Tools: Make doa, istikharah, etc. to let us marry Mr. X if the marriage is good for my relationship with Allah. If Allah give him to you, it is for the best. If not, forget Mr. X, look for Mr. Y. (wink wink)


Selingan, this is my favourite ayat from Surah Al-Furqan, 78 (if i'm not mistaken)

"Ya Tuhan kami, anugerahkan kami pasangan dan keturunan kami sebagai penyenang hati dan jadikanlah kami pemimpin bagi orang-orang yang bertakwa."


There goes. Honestly, what i write is nothing new. Its just a new and better perspective that i feel i need to share with people close to me. It change my life and how I see the world. It feels like my journey now does not lead me to nowhere. It leads me to Allah, insyaAllah. I hope it can help you too. :)

Wassalam.

Oh F..ade lipas lintas.

Some people just have this habit of swearing ALL the time and they are usually well aware of the fact. 


Is it shallow of me to think less of the person who constantly swears? 
A little bit. 


I wish i knew what a 'pious' person would do. 


That's the thing, im not alim so i get annoyed easily by these things/people/circumstances.


Maybe what i should do is be more acceptable and remember that i am far from perfect as well before i pass judgemnent onto others. 


I did swear sometimes. 


The word 'Sial' or 'bodo'. But im not proud of it. 


Diriwayatkan daripada Abdullah Ibnu Mas'ud r.a katanya: Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda: Bukan dari golongan kami orang yang menampar pipinya, mengoyak-ngoyak saku bajunya atau berdoa dengan doa orang-orang jahiliah What Rasulullah means by "doa org2 jahiliyyah" adalah mencarut. 


We are what we said. So, are we THAT low?

26 Life Lessons Learned by Age 26

1. Being an adult can be fun when you are acting like a child.
2. Love has nothing to do with looks, but everything to do with time, trust, and interest.
3. Laughing, crying, joy and anger… All are a vital.  All make us human.
4. The greatest truths in life are uncovered with simple, steady awareness.
5. Greed will bury even the lucky eventually.
6. Bad things do happen to good people.
7. Paving your own road is intelligent only if nobody has gone exactly where you are going.
8. Uncertainty is caused by a lack of knowledge.  Hesitation is the product of fear.
9. Time heals all wounds… regardless of how you feel right now.
10. Most of the time what you are looking for is right in front of you.
11. Your health is your life.
12. Chance is a gift, so act on chance when given the opportunity.
13. Kindness and hard work will take you further than intelligence.
14. People deserve a second chance, but not a third.
15. Marry your best friend.
16. Take lots of pictures.  Someday you’ll be really glad you did.
17. Money makes life easier only when the money is yours free and clear.
18. Carelessness is the root of failure
19. Your actions now create memories you will reminisce and talk about in your elder years.
20. Stepping outside of your comfort zone will put things into perspective from an angle you can’t grasp now.
21. Motivation comes in short bursts.  Act while it’s hot.
22. Purposely ignoring the obvious is like walking backwards toward the enemy.
23. Taking ownership of failure builds the foundation for success.
24. First impressions are completely worthless 50% of the time.
25. Personal glory lasts forever.
26. If you never act, you will never know for sure.

Source: http://www.marcandangel.com

I am so cool.

Ya. so i did confess, akhirnya.

Cool ke?

Cool la sangat.

How to confess to your crush?

Gilo.

Orang perempuan tak buat benda-benda ni. (kata masyarakat)
Tapi kalau tak buat, sampai bila nak simpan sendiri je.

Euww. So high school.

Analysis:
Chances he would like back= err.. -20%

Abis tu kenapa nak confess?
So i can move on, and never have to look back in regret.

Kalau sekolah2 dulu bole la cover malu dengan cakap.."Aku saje nak test kau" Hahahahahahhaha
Pastu gelak keji nak mampus, sampai dia speechless.

Kan best kalau dapat confront dan cakap terus.
Kemungkinan saya akan bunuh diri lepas buat tu.
Memang tak dapat lah.

Demn!

Help.

Yes I talk to strangers about the wedding industry

One day, i was queuing to renew my lost passport. (darn, don't let me start on that. tears will flow. seriously)
Anyway. i was queuing and in front of me is this pakcik with his daughter about my age.
She seems sweet.
She was holding a bridal magazine so i sebok2 and commented on how amazing the dress was.
We talked for a while.

And then her Ayah tiba2 join the conversation asking me..
"Awak bila pulak?"
"Lama lagi pakcik, boyfriend saya pun saya belum kenal lagi". (gila lawak bodo rasa nak sepak diri sendiri)

Then the pakcik went on and on about the belanja he is about to spend on her daughter's wedding. Bla bla.

He reminded me of my dad.

And how he have 5 children yet to be married.

After the pakcik left, I beginning to plan (yes,i am addicted to planning and executing plans).

My wedding would be small. Max 300 important people, not all 600plus plus of my facebook contacts who thought Aishahana is my real name.

I have like 6 hand-me-downs expensive wedding gowns with only alterations needed (i demand Intan do all the alterations so its free!)

Family-friends amateur photographer and videographer. I have few names in mind.

No outdoor photoshoot.

Ya thats all.

Oh did i leave the groom out of all the planning?

Hmm. I knew something missing.

Darn.

Things to write about

1. Funnyyy..funny office politics
2. Dear Office politics
3. Dude, what is actually inside your head?
4. I hate office politics
5. I really hate office politics.
6. What ever, its time to relocate myself anyway.
7. Good Business, but the management SUCKS.

I am an aspiring writer. Haha

Argh. I need want a Macbook Pro.