2012 Resolution. It took me 26 years to realise this. Have you??

Assalamualaikum ya'll.

3 more days to go before we welcome 2012 and bid farewell to 2011. I personally feel that 2011 is the year i grew a lot spiritually and getting to know what actually my life is all about. Some of you may think who needs another new year resolution? It will only lasts until March anyway. Until recently, what i learned about new year's resolution is pretty much from CLEO magazine. I want to lose 20kg!! Or get that senior executive position!! Or I'm gonna get married!! Or I'm going to get a diving license!! Yada yada. I don't realise how secular the world has make me.

You see, I'm a planner freak. I often feel empty without having any strategic goals to achieve. And Alhamdulillah, I achieved a lot of things that i THOUGHT i wanted. It looks like I'm all set and ready to face new challenges and new life goals.

But having said all that, why do i feel tired but unfulfilled? It feels like I'm constantly in search of something more fulfilling after achieving each goals. At one point, losing 10kg is a piece of cake. (Keeping the weight off is THE challenge but i couldn't care less, losing it is freakishly easy)

This coming year, it'll be different. I already found my ULTIMATE LIFE GOAL. Whatever my resolutions would be after this are my MEANS for me to fulfil that lifelong goal. The challenge is 100 times harder and the reward would be 1000 times better InsyaAllah.

The goal is to be closer to Allah. To my religion. Period. That simple. (CLICHE nye la minah kan!!!)


The thing about this ultimate goal is, it should NOT BE ONLY MINE. If you are a practising Muslim, you pray 5 times a day, you fast during Ramadhan, you went to or want to go to Haj and you believe in Rasulullah S.A.W...you might want to take this seriously. 


After understanding this is your goal as a MUSLIM, now its time to pick your means toward achieving it for this particular year.

In general, Islam teaches its believer to look for balance in life. We don't want to miss out on 'Dunia' at the same time collecting good deeds for 'akhirat'. As long as you put your deen and akhirat in front of dunia, InsyaAllah you will be fine. But how do we do that? What is the thin line between putting akhirat above everything else and yet get akhirat at the same time? (Yaaa..this is the part that took me twenty freaking years to get it through my thick head) 


For me, (this part varies for different individual) i want to achieve these 7 main things in life until the day i die. I will highlight the sentence that making it a MEANS to the ultimate goal of getting closer to Allah.

1. DEEN -  I want to be a good muslimah. I want to be that sort of person who put religion in front of everything else.

2. EDUCATION - I want to finish DBA. Knowledge is the foundation of Iman

3. CAREER - I want to be somebody significant in the company. I want to contribute. We need more successful practising muslims to influence and be decision maker. 

4. FAMILY - I want to keep good ties with them. I strongly believe that successful people have good relationship with their family. Soon, insyaAllah to learn how to be a good wife and how to raise little khalifahs


5. FINANCE - I want to have lots of money. Who doesn't? But money would stay only in my HANDS never let it touch MY HEART. Spend money on people, not on self. (Dalam setiap harta kita sebenarnya ada bahagian orang lain, bukan semua hak kita)


6. HEALTH - I want to be healthy and fit so i can live long. Our body is Allah's gift. It is definitely an important tool for us to make ibadah. Hopefully, being healthy means I can wake up at night and pray. 


7. SOCIAL LIFE - I want to surround myself with the best of people. Intelligent people with ethics and values. People that can help bring the best in me. Do you know that our social life is about the average of 5 people we spend most of our time with? Who do spend time lately? Look at your friends. They are YOU.

These seven aspects are my MEANS to get closer to Allah, which is my GOAL. In each of these seven part, Al-Quran and Sunnah teach me some very specific way to follow. You see how balanced and complete ISLAM is my dear friend? Subhanallah. Everything is laid bare in front of us. Its either we go and look for it or get distracted by something less significant.

Its all about a change in perspective. Let me give you an example of how wrong and twisted things could be if we don't put Allah as our goal.

Heedless goal: Get married to Mr. X

How to achieve: We make doa to Allah to let me marry Mr. X. If he doesn't want to, open his heart ya Allah...let him see me and only me ya Allah (contoh doa kita la kan..cewahh)

Problem: Our knowledge is limited. Does marrying Mr. X makes me close to Allah? Even if he is the best Muslim guy there is. If marrying him do not make me closer to god would you still wants Allah to grant you that wish? Whats your choice? Your Deen or your Man? If deep down, you are picking your Man...TETTTTT. 

Lets turn the situation around if we put getting closer to Allah as our goal.


Goal: Get closer to Allah

Means/Tools: Make doa, istikharah, etc. to let us marry Mr. X if the marriage is good for my relationship with Allah. If Allah give him to you, it is for the best. If not, forget Mr. X, look for Mr. Y. (wink wink)


Selingan, this is my favourite ayat from Surah Al-Furqan, 78 (if i'm not mistaken)

"Ya Tuhan kami, anugerahkan kami pasangan dan keturunan kami sebagai penyenang hati dan jadikanlah kami pemimpin bagi orang-orang yang bertakwa."


There goes. Honestly, what i write is nothing new. Its just a new and better perspective that i feel i need to share with people close to me. It change my life and how I see the world. It feels like my journey now does not lead me to nowhere. It leads me to Allah, insyaAllah. I hope it can help you too. :)

Wassalam.

Oh F..ade lipas lintas.

Some people just have this habit of swearing ALL the time and they are usually well aware of the fact. 


Is it shallow of me to think less of the person who constantly swears? 
A little bit. 


I wish i knew what a 'pious' person would do. 


That's the thing, im not alim so i get annoyed easily by these things/people/circumstances.


Maybe what i should do is be more acceptable and remember that i am far from perfect as well before i pass judgemnent onto others. 


I did swear sometimes. 


The word 'Sial' or 'bodo'. But im not proud of it. 


Diriwayatkan daripada Abdullah Ibnu Mas'ud r.a katanya: Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda: Bukan dari golongan kami orang yang menampar pipinya, mengoyak-ngoyak saku bajunya atau berdoa dengan doa orang-orang jahiliah What Rasulullah means by "doa org2 jahiliyyah" adalah mencarut. 


We are what we said. So, are we THAT low?

26 Life Lessons Learned by Age 26

1. Being an adult can be fun when you are acting like a child.
2. Love has nothing to do with looks, but everything to do with time, trust, and interest.
3. Laughing, crying, joy and anger… All are a vital.  All make us human.
4. The greatest truths in life are uncovered with simple, steady awareness.
5. Greed will bury even the lucky eventually.
6. Bad things do happen to good people.
7. Paving your own road is intelligent only if nobody has gone exactly where you are going.
8. Uncertainty is caused by a lack of knowledge.  Hesitation is the product of fear.
9. Time heals all wounds… regardless of how you feel right now.
10. Most of the time what you are looking for is right in front of you.
11. Your health is your life.
12. Chance is a gift, so act on chance when given the opportunity.
13. Kindness and hard work will take you further than intelligence.
14. People deserve a second chance, but not a third.
15. Marry your best friend.
16. Take lots of pictures.  Someday you’ll be really glad you did.
17. Money makes life easier only when the money is yours free and clear.
18. Carelessness is the root of failure
19. Your actions now create memories you will reminisce and talk about in your elder years.
20. Stepping outside of your comfort zone will put things into perspective from an angle you can’t grasp now.
21. Motivation comes in short bursts.  Act while it’s hot.
22. Purposely ignoring the obvious is like walking backwards toward the enemy.
23. Taking ownership of failure builds the foundation for success.
24. First impressions are completely worthless 50% of the time.
25. Personal glory lasts forever.
26. If you never act, you will never know for sure.

Source: http://www.marcandangel.com

I am so cool.

Ya. so i did confess, akhirnya.

Cool ke?

Cool la sangat.

How to confess to your crush?

Gilo.

Orang perempuan tak buat benda-benda ni. (kata masyarakat)
Tapi kalau tak buat, sampai bila nak simpan sendiri je.

Euww. So high school.

Analysis:
Chances he would like back= err.. -20%

Abis tu kenapa nak confess?
So i can move on, and never have to look back in regret.

Kalau sekolah2 dulu bole la cover malu dengan cakap.."Aku saje nak test kau" Hahahahahahhaha
Pastu gelak keji nak mampus, sampai dia speechless.

Kan best kalau dapat confront dan cakap terus.
Kemungkinan saya akan bunuh diri lepas buat tu.
Memang tak dapat lah.

Demn!

Help.

Yes I talk to strangers about the wedding industry

One day, i was queuing to renew my lost passport. (darn, don't let me start on that. tears will flow. seriously)
Anyway. i was queuing and in front of me is this pakcik with his daughter about my age.
She seems sweet.
She was holding a bridal magazine so i sebok2 and commented on how amazing the dress was.
We talked for a while.

And then her Ayah tiba2 join the conversation asking me..
"Awak bila pulak?"
"Lama lagi pakcik, boyfriend saya pun saya belum kenal lagi". (gila lawak bodo rasa nak sepak diri sendiri)

Then the pakcik went on and on about the belanja he is about to spend on her daughter's wedding. Bla bla.

He reminded me of my dad.

And how he have 5 children yet to be married.

After the pakcik left, I beginning to plan (yes,i am addicted to planning and executing plans).

My wedding would be small. Max 300 important people, not all 600plus plus of my facebook contacts who thought Aishahana is my real name.

I have like 6 hand-me-downs expensive wedding gowns with only alterations needed (i demand Intan do all the alterations so its free!)

Family-friends amateur photographer and videographer. I have few names in mind.

No outdoor photoshoot.

Ya thats all.

Oh did i leave the groom out of all the planning?

Hmm. I knew something missing.

Darn.

Things to write about

1. Funnyyy..funny office politics
2. Dear Office politics
3. Dude, what is actually inside your head?
4. I hate office politics
5. I really hate office politics.
6. What ever, its time to relocate myself anyway.
7. Good Business, but the management SUCKS.

I am an aspiring writer. Haha

Argh. I need want a Macbook Pro.

Who died? and made you king of anything.

It is so freakingly upsetting and annoying when people trying to control other people's life. Tak kisah la direct ke, indirect ke. Yang direct tu ok lagi. Like, your boss ke kan. Maybe on the 9-5 basis it is acceptable. Tapi kalau indirectly memang psiko la. Nak control ape kes beb? kesian nye life orang yang begitu skali. Work and money is not everything, babe. Never is, never will be.  

It never happen to me though. No freaking way.

Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
While I look outside
So many things I’d say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You’ve got opinions, man
We’re all entitled to ‘em, but I never asked
So let me thank you for your time, and try not to waste anymore of mine
And get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe, but I’m not drowning
There’s no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent, all full of good intent
Swear you know best
But you expect me to jump up on board with you
And ride off into your delusional sunset

I’m not the one who’s lost with no direction
But you’ll never see
You’re so busy making maps with my name on them in all caps
You got the talking down, just not the listening

All my life I’ve tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it’s my turn to decide

Let me hold your crown, babe.

Oh Finally!

I spend all day today cleaning and organizing my messy room. Been planning to do this since spring, now its already winter. Nooo time lah. (alasan)

Anyways, hari ni saya berjaya. Tiada lagi baju di lantai, bawah katil, tepi katil, atas katil atau disumbat2 disetiap penjuru.

The good thing is, i found soooo many things i forgot i have. Ada baju and jeans yang belum pakai pun. Ceh.

Ok, lepas ni saya berjanji akan jadi lebih perempuan dan selalu mengemas bilik.

Memasak? errr. one thing at a time.

New bedding. Got rid of the comforter. I dont use aircond that often pun. Nenek visit dia cakap, buat ape pasang aircond pastu selimut tebal-tebal. Hmm. make sense.

Baju-baju disusun ikut jenis. Office wear, dresses, baju kurung, etc. Tapi hanger zaman dulu punye je ade. Yang besi2. Recycle sudey. Selagi bole gantung.

I have so many lipsticks in different hand bags. Sampai lupa, then get a new one. Darn. I wont buy anymore make ups until 2013. Serious shit.

My favourite part. Dah ade hanger shawl kenapa la tak guna. My shawls used to be all over the house. Note to my dear sisters: Lepas pakai, letak la balik kat sini ye.

Handbags. Hmm.

Some of my shoes nicely put on its shelf. Not in the car anymore!!!

The Maxis people called!

No. Not for the job!

But for my iPhone 4, ready for collection. Yeah.

Now my iPad dah ade kawan.

Haha.

On empowerment.

Ok, i am not a CEO. Probably not going to be, as it is not in my domain of interest. Whatever.

But i believe im a born leader. I can initiate, plan things, make decisions, execute, see results then give feedbacks. Half of the people i know cannot do those things, or maybe they can, they prefer not to. But thats not an issue. A good leader can also be a follower, as long as the people they suppose to follow MAKE SENSE to them.

When i first started working, my mentor told me to remember 2 rules. Which are:

1.    Your boss is always right

2.    If your boss is wrong, refer to number one.

Hmm. Ok.

But (my generation and) I beg to differ.

We should stop using the rules. Here, i propose a new one.

1.    Your boss is always right

2.    If your boss is wrong, try to correct him. But make sure you’ve done all your research and prepare well. Dont do it alone, Do it in groups of trusting people.

3.    If your boss still thinks he is right, take out that resignation letter and RESIGNED.

If you are an intelligent and resourceful worker, know your value. Do not stay in a company that does not appreciate your existance.

Most successful companies encourage employees to make decisions, providing an environment of open communication and acceptance of new ideas. That is EMPOWERMENT.

You dont have to be in C-level, to be in control.  If you are in such condition, that is soooo SAD. Refer to my third rule. There are thousands of other companies out there that might suit you. REALLY.

Review on Maria Elena The Greek Helen

Hei, i found this cool blogger making tutorial vids on Youtube. Her topic is a bit random, on skin care, on wearing hijab, etc. But she's funny i guess. My personal favourite is the video "Independent Woman Can Go Shopping Alone". Haha. Totally get her. Keep making cool videos, dear sis. You rock!.

Check her blogspot, i have the link here somewhere in my blog. Or go to youtube and search for peliks. Her nickname is shortnap.

http://www.youtube.com/user/shortnap

On twitter

1. Transition period of switching Facebook to Twitter
2. Life should be simple. Like twitter.
3.Facebook is crowded. and I'm claustrophobic.
4.AishaMohamood.

Rules of writing

I was reading Dr M's latest entry entitle 'sejarah', about how we Malaysian always have to justify the truth to maintain the greater goods of all race. But is it really? Who are we protecting by doing that?

Even in our daily lives, we are doing that. anything you write Must be positive and neutral. Like you are not allowed to have opinions. Even if we do,just keep it to yourself. Thats Malaysian.

But at the same time, you talk about wanting the younger generations to think outside the box, be innovative, have courage to change the status quo, etc. Is it the generation gap or am i being a brat if i think those people are the dumbest group ever to walk on this planet earth? Those leaders who think they can justify one part of our mind to obey and follow their stupid rules and at the same time wanting us to make them rich by having all these gifted and bright minds to serve the country.

To hell with all you suckers, i am writing history not fairy tales. Telling me to shut up? That just giving me more points to write bad things about you. Haha

Delete facebook

Its annoying when people purposely add you as friend just to dig out and find faults. I will say what i want to say still. If you suck then be afraid.

Work, Launching, midterm exams and angry birds

Wei, life has been so crazily hectic lately.
The 6th day of the year and tons of unchecked todo list.
I hate that.

Not the busy part,of course.
As I enjoy being busy.
Its the second best thing in life.

I spend most of 9-5 traveling back and forth from KL to nilai.
Bigggg big huge project coming up in Feb.hehe.grin

I already ponteng few classes sebab terlalu mengantuk akibat daripada jem yang bodoh itu.
50mins journey bole jadi 3 hours. Bodo. Depressed.
The midterm exams were ok so never mind the class.

Oh yea. I finally bought my first Apple iPad.
And am writing on it this very second.
Perasan sungguh cool la ni.

My second Apple insyaAllah coming end of this year.
Waiting for Lion to be release in Malaysia.

Hehe. Merepek. Dah tengah malam
Tak bole tido lagi sebab keje belum siap
Tapi main angry birds tak bole stop.
Dah 5 hari tak lepas level.
Susah hati dowh.

Susah hati sebab tak dapat Lepas level 19
Benci