I am so cool.

Ya. so i did confess, akhirnya.

Cool ke?

Cool la sangat.

How to confess to your crush?

Gilo.

Orang perempuan tak buat benda-benda ni. (kata masyarakat)
Tapi kalau tak buat, sampai bila nak simpan sendiri je.

Euww. So high school.

Analysis:
Chances he would like back= err.. -20%

Abis tu kenapa nak confess?
So i can move on, and never have to look back in regret.

Kalau sekolah2 dulu bole la cover malu dengan cakap.."Aku saje nak test kau" Hahahahahahhaha
Pastu gelak keji nak mampus, sampai dia speechless.

Kan best kalau dapat confront dan cakap terus.
Kemungkinan saya akan bunuh diri lepas buat tu.
Memang tak dapat lah.

Demn!

Help.

Yes I talk to strangers about the wedding industry

One day, i was queuing to renew my lost passport. (darn, don't let me start on that. tears will flow. seriously)
Anyway. i was queuing and in front of me is this pakcik with his daughter about my age.
She seems sweet.
She was holding a bridal magazine so i sebok2 and commented on how amazing the dress was.
We talked for a while.

And then her Ayah tiba2 join the conversation asking me..
"Awak bila pulak?"
"Lama lagi pakcik, boyfriend saya pun saya belum kenal lagi". (gila lawak bodo rasa nak sepak diri sendiri)

Then the pakcik went on and on about the belanja he is about to spend on her daughter's wedding. Bla bla.

He reminded me of my dad.

And how he have 5 children yet to be married.

After the pakcik left, I beginning to plan (yes,i am addicted to planning and executing plans).

My wedding would be small. Max 300 important people, not all 600plus plus of my facebook contacts who thought Aishahana is my real name.

I have like 6 hand-me-downs expensive wedding gowns with only alterations needed (i demand Intan do all the alterations so its free!)

Family-friends amateur photographer and videographer. I have few names in mind.

No outdoor photoshoot.

Ya thats all.

Oh did i leave the groom out of all the planning?

Hmm. I knew something missing.

Darn.

Things to write about

1. Funnyyy..funny office politics
2. Dear Office politics
3. Dude, what is actually inside your head?
4. I hate office politics
5. I really hate office politics.
6. What ever, its time to relocate myself anyway.
7. Good Business, but the management SUCKS.

I am an aspiring writer. Haha

Argh. I need want a Macbook Pro.

Who died? and made you king of anything.

It is so freakingly upsetting and annoying when people trying to control other people's life. Tak kisah la direct ke, indirect ke. Yang direct tu ok lagi. Like, your boss ke kan. Maybe on the 9-5 basis it is acceptable. Tapi kalau indirectly memang psiko la. Nak control ape kes beb? kesian nye life orang yang begitu skali. Work and money is not everything, babe. Never is, never will be.  

It never happen to me though. No freaking way.

Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
While I look outside
So many things I’d say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You’ve got opinions, man
We’re all entitled to ‘em, but I never asked
So let me thank you for your time, and try not to waste anymore of mine
And get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe, but I’m not drowning
There’s no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent, all full of good intent
Swear you know best
But you expect me to jump up on board with you
And ride off into your delusional sunset

I’m not the one who’s lost with no direction
But you’ll never see
You’re so busy making maps with my name on them in all caps
You got the talking down, just not the listening

All my life I’ve tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it’s my turn to decide

Let me hold your crown, babe.

Oh Finally!

I spend all day today cleaning and organizing my messy room. Been planning to do this since spring, now its already winter. Nooo time lah. (alasan)

Anyways, hari ni saya berjaya. Tiada lagi baju di lantai, bawah katil, tepi katil, atas katil atau disumbat2 disetiap penjuru.

The good thing is, i found soooo many things i forgot i have. Ada baju and jeans yang belum pakai pun. Ceh.

Ok, lepas ni saya berjanji akan jadi lebih perempuan dan selalu mengemas bilik.

Memasak? errr. one thing at a time.

New bedding. Got rid of the comforter. I dont use aircond that often pun. Nenek visit dia cakap, buat ape pasang aircond pastu selimut tebal-tebal. Hmm. make sense.

Baju-baju disusun ikut jenis. Office wear, dresses, baju kurung, etc. Tapi hanger zaman dulu punye je ade. Yang besi2. Recycle sudey. Selagi bole gantung.

I have so many lipsticks in different hand bags. Sampai lupa, then get a new one. Darn. I wont buy anymore make ups until 2013. Serious shit.

My favourite part. Dah ade hanger shawl kenapa la tak guna. My shawls used to be all over the house. Note to my dear sisters: Lepas pakai, letak la balik kat sini ye.

Handbags. Hmm.

Some of my shoes nicely put on its shelf. Not in the car anymore!!!

The Maxis people called!

No. Not for the job!

But for my iPhone 4, ready for collection. Yeah.

Now my iPad dah ade kawan.

Haha.